well, now I'm learning to not so needed him. but when he need me, I'll always there.

I just wanna know what you want.
You never prove to me if you still love me. the real prove. prove what a girl want. I just want that.

i gave him everything he want. e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. yeah. i JUST want 1 request, but he wont do it.

Read this: if you really love me, you never let me go. you never said 'whatever' when i complain bout your atittude to me. Your 'careless' atittude to me. and when you said that 'whatever' words, for me, it means you no more care to me. maybe no more love? Idk.
lets see. If you really want me back, need me too much, and love me too, you can come whatever you want and tell that u need me, want me etc.

Oh yea 1 more, prove it!!!! Dont just only a bullshit.

xoxo, essa.

P.S: CEWE JUGA PUNYA HATI & HARGA DIRI.

HALOOOOOOOOO BLOG!!!

gila udh lama banget ga update kangen. aku mau cerita apayaa......... pokokknya beberapa lama ini aku mengalami:

1. baru suka sama the ting tings gara2 soulnation. heee heee heeeeeeeeee norak yaaa abs gw ke soulnation aja di paksa fay sm kakanya karena mrk ada 1 tiket ga kepake. yaudah deh gw iya2in aja mumpung emng ga ada kerjaan d rmh. eh dapet tiket the ting tings pula. btw, soulnation juga ama bela & putra dan ketemu banyakkk sekali ada thaya nisa avi eka adria redhi waa banyak deh. trs pas ntn the ting tings gatau apa2 tp enakkk gitu lagunya,besoknya langsung download eh skrg ketagihan dan nyesel kenapa wkt itu gw belom tau -_- dan ini beberapa fotonya:









































































2. miss my ex-boyf. fuggg ini sooo fugg ya knowwwww wkwkwkw gatau kenapa anehhhlah yaaa tiba2 gitu. yasudah ini ga ush d crtain detailnya. kangen aja. biasa kan? boleh kan? ga boleh? whaaatever :')

3. saya kangen mama :( mamaku lg dines ke india 10 hari... lama banget dah hari2 pas ga ada mama bener2 bt. mau cerita ke syp lagi selain mama skrg? pacar...? ga punya. temen..? ada sihh cm bs blg sabar2 aja. hueee yaudah mau ga mau sm mama yg emng bener2 kasi solusi. dan sms ke india mahal wooy berasa tajir gitu gw kmren smsan molo ama emake wkwkw. ya untunggg deh rabu besok pulang hehehe. me miss you moooom :(

4. TWITTER GW DI REPLY SAMA JUNOT WOOOOOOOYYY!!! GILA INI SENENG BANGET!!!!!!!!! omaaaaaaaiiiggggggggaaaaaaaaaaaawwwddd huhuhuh seneng bangettt yaa wkwkkw mau bukti? liat aha twitternya junot. me <3> :) :)

hmm mungkin ini DULU abs udh di teriakin papa di suruh bobo. well bye readers :)

i'm in love with this song. i know this song from vino. he told me that this song is so cool, then i listened that song...... and yeah vino right. this song is so cool and the lyrics is....... too deep

and this is the song:

Two Is Better Than One - Boys Like Girls

and this is the lyrics:
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When it's all said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

♥♥,

essa

ugh random!

thursday closer than usual.
yeah, thurs-day. yours day.

day went very fast. you and her more closer than usual.
instead, me and you fighting everyday.

oh god help meeee... give me more patience. please.. i need that.

i want come back with him again.

i know he was hurt me. but i also need him and this time it was me who had to yield....

(oke mulai dr sini gw pake bhs indonesia. otak gw udh mentok)

dan ya emang juga ada salah gw..

semoga gw bisa sabar nunggu..
ya emng gw udh ga mikirin gw sendiri juga, karena emng gw bener2 butuh dia.
terserahhh juga ya apa kata kalian.. gw juga bisa ga peduli.

ya kamis....... kayanya gw udh mudik dan mereka hmm gw gatau lah.
nginget yg sabtu kemaren aja hmm ok.. dia rapih banget.
gw kangen. itu selalu.

dan lagu beri cinta waktu, shiver adalah lagu yg tepat buat gw skrg.

oiya sama takkan hilang.....

boleh gw nyanyi bentar? sumpah nih udh jam 1:48AM lg nunggu babe pulang bosen dan gw skrg jd aneh.

dr awal gw afal aja ya...

sebenarnya.. ku tak rela meninggalkan mu dengan yg lain..
sesungguhnya sejak saat itu bayangan dirimu melekat di hati..
namun kini.. kau telah pergi.. mungkin cinta tak harus memiliki...
kau takkan hilang.... tak pernah hilang meski kau berhenti ku mencoba lupakan dirimu..
kau takkan hilang.. tak pernah hilang kan selalu terpendam menjadi kenangan...

ok itu sepotong yg emang intinya buat gw.... sedih banget buat gw.

terakhir nih janji gw mo nulis kata2 yg pgn gue tulis:

sakit, sabar, sedih, tahan, nangis, cengeng, bodo, jealous, kangen, sayang.

ok mungkin itu aja.... udh ah sooooo random banget posting kali ini. BYE!

Harus. Sabar. Banget.

dan itu susah. banget.

gak sekedar sabar dan bener2 harus nahan. gak boleh nyindir.... gak ga boleh....
ga boleh jutek ya ga boleh........ sabar kalo mau kedepannya balik kaya dulu lagi...
kalo mau semuanya jadi apa yg gw pengen lagi.

mungkin ini saatnya gw yg harus sabar yg harus nerima... ok dulu emng gw ga sampe jadian. tapi ya sama aja kali ya gw harus bisa nerima. tapi emng ya itu kepaksa banget dah bener2 harus di tahan.
gatau kapan gw bisa bener2 ikhlasin... karena emng ya gw masih punya perasaan (hahahaha gombal? ya terserah)

apa yg lo ceritain.... itu selalu gw inget. dan gw ga bs ngilangin sifat jealous gw saat lo cerita itu. tampang gw ga bs boong kalo gw ga tahan dengerin itu semua. tapi ya mau ga mau gw harus dengerin. dari pada gw denger dari org lain... itu lebih nyesek.
dan gw harus tau itu semua.
emang itu berat banget lho rasanya kalo denger itu semua pgn ilangin aja hati gw sekalian dr pd sakit nyesek gitu mulu... sumpah ga gombal ga lebay.

itu sakit.

tapi ya... semua harus pake sabar, tahan

dan juga semua itu susah..... bantu aku

haaaloooooooooo

bener2 ga tau harus nulis apa sumpahh tp bosen dah pgn ngepost.
hmm masa curhat? bosen lah yaa tp mo curhat aja deh maaf lho kalo lo ga mo baca ya tak ape...
















tapi gw ga kuat nulisnya disini. so sorry abs sumpah ga kuat....................... :'(

So I look in your direction
but you pay me no attention, do you?
I know you don't listen to me
'cos you say you see straight through me, don't you?

but on and on
from the moment I wake
to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side
just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line
just to see if you care

oh, did you want me to change?
well I'd change for good
and I want you to know
that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say...

don't you shiver
you shiver
singing loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you

so you know how much I need you
but you never even see me, do you?
and is this my final chance of getting you?

but on and on
from the moment I wake
to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side
just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line
just to see if you care, if you care

oh, did you want me to change?
well I'd change for good
and I want you to know
that you'll always get your way
and I wanted to say...

don't you shiver
don't you shiver
I sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you

yeah I'll always be waiting for you
yeah I'll always be waiting for you
yeah I'll always be waiting for you
for you, I will always be waiting

and it's you I see
but you don't see me
and it's you I hear
so loud and so clear
I sing it loud, and clear
and I'll always be waiting for you

so I look in your direction
but you pay me no attention
and you know how much I need you
but you never even see me

Shiver by Coldplay

Dengarlah bisikkku
Saat ku merindumu
Tetes air mata
Tak dapat sembunyikan rasa
Cintaku untuk dirimu

Bilakah kau tau
Ketika kau jauh
Menangis hatiku
Saat kumemanggil namamu
Tiada lagi hadir untukku..oh

Bila ku katakan kini
Arti hadirmu disini
Mungkinkah kau kan kembali
Bersama denganku

Beri cinta waktu
Untuk memahami
Untuk meyakini
Bila esok yang kan terjadi
Semua indah yang terjalani

Bilakah kau tau
Ketika kau jauh
Menangis hatiku
Saat kumemanggil namamu
Tiada lagi hadir untukku..oh

Bila ku katakan kini
Arti hadirmu disini
Mungkinkah kau kan kembali
Bersama denganku

Dengar bisikku
Ku merindumu
Kini kau jauh menangis hatiku
Masih adakah ruang hatimu
Untukku kembali..oh

Beri cinta waktu
Untuk meyakinimu..

Maliq & d' Essentials - Beri Cinta Waktu